Friday, August 22, 2008

The Gymnasium of the Horse...

I mentioned that I read this book on the way to/from Portland. I've also been taking notes and thought I'd share some here in my blog. Quotes/notes from the book will be in white. My comments will be in purple!

The Gymnasium of the Horse
by: Gustav Steinbrecht

(pg 2)
"Whoever understands that beauty and lightness of seat do not depend only on the posture of the rider, but just as much on the correct carriage and the regular gaits of the horse, will find it quite natural that I recommend directing the student, as soon as he has become somewhat secure, to work on his horse's carriage, although this might once in a while occur at the expense of his normal position."

"There can be nothing worse than to put a beginning rider on a worn-out or poorly trained horse"
(I thought that this was a very important quote, as I have seen many riders struggling with unsuitable horses. Yes, the regular type of horse that destroys a rider's confidence. But even horses that are dead sided and hard mouthed wreak havoc on a rider's learning. So much that they don't realize the horse is dead sided/hard mouthed. Take Jessie for example, we could canter from a walk, side pass, turn on the forehand, etc. But he was dead sided. He could give at the poll with the best of them, but he was hard mouthed. Amazing. I never would have believed it if you told me until I really started riding him and we got to the point where he wasn't dead sided or hard mouthed)

(pg 9)
There are 3 types of aids-driving aids, restraining aids, and supporting aids.

Driving aids-those given with the lower leg are of greatest importance because they are the most effective and most natural

Aids from the lower leg-are given with the spurs, calves, and knees
(My biggest struggle here is remember the knees. I tend to grip with them and have made an effort to relax, especially since starting this book. When I started dressage lessons I had the bad habit of cueing with the *back* of my calf, instead of the inside. I've gotten better, but I'm still not there yet)

Aids given with the spurs-aid the activity of the hindquarters which gives a stimulating, electrifying effect
  • Jab-given as punishment
  • Prick-"serves as a reminder"
  • Flat Touch-uses the side of the spur
  • Spur Pressure-a "prick" used with a restraining hand
(I'm reading all of the spur information especially closely, because while I've ridden in them, they were just kind of thrown on, and I'd like to know as much as I can about their use before putting them on again.)

The lighter the touch of the spur the more support needed from the stirrup

(I found this statement very interesting, because as I strive to educate myself further in dressage I mainly get the impression that stirrups=evil; if we want to be true horsemen we would never ride with stirrups. Steinbrecht does say that it's good to do stirrupless work, but also emphasizes the importance of stirrups and the role they play in supporting the rider.)

Calf Aids-steady barriers within which the hindquarters must work; this contact will establish itself naturally

Florida, Here We Come?

Craig and I need to fill our our ADP, basically our wishlist of bases we want to go to next, in order. We were doing some research on what to do for our back up bases, since we already knew we wanted to go to Virginia (Langley AFB). I even found a stable I wanted to train out of (though she didn't anticipate having any openings, lol). Then Craig brought up Patrick AFB. It's in Florida, 2 hours from Wellington, 2 hours from Orlando, and 2 hours from Ocala. Hmmm. Looks like there are a lot of dressage barns in the area of the base. Hmmm. There is a college fund program for Florida residents to lock in a price at any state Florida college or community college where you pay by the month pretty much from your child's birth until it's time for him/her to enter college. Hmmm. So we started leaning toward Florida.

Craig contacted the person that decides our assignments. She said that Langley is overbooked...pretty much no way of getting there. She'd have to check on the other choices he mentioned, but, Patrick...well...Patrick she had openings at right now, we can get orders (aka our assignment locked in) within a week or two. Hmmm....

So, chances are very strong that we may be headed to Florida after we're done in Ohio next spring. Still not sure how I feel about it, since I've never considered living in Florida before now.

I went to the barn to see Sophie today, she had rubbed her tail a bit since my last visit, not surprisingly, her udder was very dirty. I stopped at the feed store on the way home and bought some liniment as well. I was thinking that since her neck seems to get so sore after just a couple of rides that it'd help if I put something like Ben Gay on it, to help her muscles recover more quickly.

There's an open show in a couple of weekends that I was considering going to, just for the exposure. And then of course a dressage show October 6th that I'd really like to enter. I plan on riding tomorrow, hopefully my ankle will hold up to it. It has been extremely hot here the last couple of days. We'll see if tomorrow is any better!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Kitty is Crazy Smart...or...Why We're Lucky Cats Don't Have Opposable Thumbs...

Cat walking is still going well. Someone had asked earlier, cat walking is just to give them a chance to be outside and experience nature. They're never going to be allowed outside by themselves because we move so much (every 3-4 years) that I don't want them in the habit of roaming the neighborhood here, where it's safe, only to move to a place with a busier road or is otherwise unsafe. Kitty is still loving it. And she is crazy smart, case in point...

She knows what her collar/harness mean! If I go to the toy basket, where the collars/harnesses are kept and pick them up she comes running, meowing the whole time, and stands close to me and really still while I put her harness and collar on her. She's very polite about going outside, won't go out the door by herself generally (I have to pick her up). Once outside she mainly stays on her stake. When we were finishing up the front garden we staked her out front with us becacuse she was being a pain inside the house, and she was great, even though out front is a lot scarier than our fenced back yard.

She's still a bit of a monster when she comes in if she didn't choose to come in. She knows what door knobs/handles are and does her best to use them. That just means jumping at the handle and trying to hang on to it. She does this while crying very loudly if we're working outside and she's inside. She's only volunteered to come inside once on her own, and that was after she was out for 2 hours. Generally we take her out for 45-60 minutes and that is definitely not long enough for Her Highness.

Elphie still freaks out on the leash, so for now she wears her collar with her information on it and gets to be loose in the backyard. So far she just hangs around the house (and wants back in the house every 20 minutes). If she were to try to escape or start investigating more than the wall of the house she probably won't be allowed out unless someone is holding on to her leash, which means she won't get out as much as Kitty, because I can read while Kitty is out, but not if I'm following Elphie and trying to keep slack in the leash at all times.

Did You Miss Me?

I have felt so guilty for not blogging these last days, but I've been busy and wasn't permitting myself to go to the barn or blog until I was caught up with my thesis. Which I am now, yay! Still got a long way to go, but I have a good start. Plus, Craig's parents came to visit this weekend so we were trying to get the front yard finished up plus do some cleaning and schoolwork.
I did go see Sophie last Tuesday, and rode. She was great. We're past the point of needing to trot right away in order to keep her moving, so we did a lot of walk work. Specifically small serpentines what were pretty much continuous 10 meter circles. It helped her come onto the bit because she still tends to brace at the walk until we do trot work to get her supple and giving. Plus I'd like to extend our rides past the 25 minute mark and thought it'd help to begin with adding more walk work. (Plus I tend to forget to work on stuff at the walk). We also worked on shoulder in a little, it wasn't great, but a good start I think.
The rest of our ride was spent imitating dressage tests. I'm thinking of entering a show October 6th, so we mainly worked on 20 meter circles and straight lines along the sides. We get great work by doing spiral circles and the like, but if we only practice spiral circles we're going to be screwed when it comes time to do a test that's nothing but huge circles and straight lines. I was also careful to do as many circles in the scary end of the arena as the not scary (as well as the center) and I'm happy to say that the scary end of the arena is almost not scary at all now!
One problem we did have in the ride was working on the canter. I wanted to work on making the transition crisper, so after a couple of ok ones, tapped her with the whip right after asking and she cantered, but it was fast and rushed and not balanced. Then our trot work wasn't very good, a little rushed, so we worked on that until it was calm and then cantering a couple more times. It took three tries before she was calm and balanced at the canter again. So I think I'll leave our canter transitions alone and not use the whip if she takes a couple of strides until we've done it more and had a lesson on it.
I still haven't had a lesson yet. I can't ride right now because I scraped my ankly up pretty good on our fancy schmancy new blocks and it will hurt like heck to put a boot on right now.
One final thing, Sophie's breeder is awesome!!!! She sent me pictures of Sophie as a baby, her mom, a full sister, and her sire. They arrived in the mail yesterday and I'm thrilled. I need to get them scanned and uploaded. One of the pictures of Sophie as a yearling shows some nice airtime at the trot even. I'm at school right now, but I'll get caught up with what everyone has been doing today at some point!

Monday, August 11, 2008

I'm a Bad Horse Mommy...

Craig and I spent the weekend in Portland, it was a whirlwind trip. We left Thursday and got back Monday morning (at 6:30 am, ouch...we live in Ohio). We got home home at 8 and went to bed. Craig went to class and I slept until 5:30, so I didn't make it to the barn, even though I wanted to go ride today after missing the last five days. So, that's where I've been. I should make it out tomorrow, I might try to get some pictures as well. I'll also start posting my notes from The Gymnasium of the Horse at some point, though that pesky thesis I'm supposed to be working on for my masters might get in the way a bit. Anyway, I'm off to catch up on what everyone else has been doing!

Friday, August 8, 2008

Cat Walking Pictures!!!

I've spent the last day travelling, and didn't have a chance to update yesterday, but I did get a chance to upload the pics of Elphie walking before we left. I've been reading The Gymnasium of the Horse by Gustav Steinbrecht and it's been really interesting so far. It's odd, because I've had this book for three years and never really tried to read it (I think I've read one of the forwards a couple of times). I think I thought it would be too hard or something, but it really isn't. I'm only about 30 pages into it (because I'm taking notes as I'm reading) but it's like someone put a Universal Translator in my head that has dressage as one of the loaded languages. I plan on putting my notes into this blog (kind of like the Lessons With Lendon book review I've got going on), that way I can refresh myself on the key points at a later time without having to page through the whole book, or try to keep my notes someplace where I know where they are.

Anyway, on to the cat walking pictures. Right now I only have Elphie pictures. Elphie's real name is Elphaba, which is the name of the Wicked Witch of the West in the book Wicked. That's why Elphie has a light green collar. My husband and I have seen Wicked three times so far, once in NYC, once in Columbus, and once in Dayton. We saw it the weekend we got engaged, so it has special meaning to us (plus I gave him Wicked and Son of a Witch for Christmas/Valentine's Day when we were dating, and Somewhere Over the Rainbow was the song we danced to for our first dance at our wedding).


Elphie still mainly hangs out along the side of the house...


...so I told Craig to carry her out into the yard and pet her, that way she felt safer and got to see that the middle of the back yard wasn't so bad. I was sitting with Kitty at the time...


...you can see that it didn't last long. I don't know if she'll ever be safe on the leash, she freaks out whenever she can't walk because she's reached the end of the leash...

...so for now she mainly gets to walk on her own with her leash dragging. She doesn't go far and one of us is always watching her...



...of course, Kitty's favorite game is to attack Elphie's leash. But I'm just glad that Kitty remembered she and Elphie live together normally. The last time Kitty was outside and Elphie was in the bedroom window, watching, Kitty was growling and hissing at her through the window.



These are half the Elphie pictures, I'm going to post more tomorrow or the next day. They're kind of boring, because cat walking really entails cat following. Or, cat untangling, when they go one way around a post and then decide to reverse without going back the way they came. It'd be cool if we could get Elphie to play fetch outside, like she does inside.

Oh, and I had to take a zillion pictures of Elphie because normally she is impossible to get good pictures of. Not only because of her color, but she really has no desire to pose, whatsoever. Kitty is a little prima donna when the camera comes out, but not Elpie. She doesn't look at me, even when I call her, and most of the pictures her eyes are closed or half closed. At least we have one photogenic cat though.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Happy Birthday To Me...

Today was my birthday, I'm well on my way out of my 20's. We took the cats for a walkk tonight and I got a lot of good pictures, no time to post them now though. Just wanted to say thanks for those of you that wished me a happy birthday. It was pretty good, very laid back, probably because I'm getting old. So thanks everyone!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Half Goes and Half Whoas...

Today's chapter from Lessons With Lendon was regarding the half halt, though breaking it down into half whoas and half goes. First on a straight line and then on a circle. So, I got Sophie ready and we started off going large around the ring. I decided to work on half goes on the long sides and half whoas on the short sides, though I would often carry the half whoa portion out through part of the long side too, so that she wouldn't anticipate. It went pretty well, she was a lot more responsive off my leg than I thought she would be, that's for sure.

I was very pleased that she wasn't nearly as looky at the sunlight door, I don't know if it was because the light wasn't that bad or if she was less concerned because she saw much worse yesterday on the trail ride. After she was going good on the long/short sides we did a 20 meter circle in the center of the arena (at E, normally we were in one corner of the arena doing 20 meter circles). She worked pretty well at half whoas and half goes.

Half goes are when you lightly apply your leg to the horse, expecting a forward reaction. With Sophie, she speeds up the trot a little and takes bigger strides. You aren't looking for a specific reaction, just something "more". I only had to back up the leg with the whip once or twice the whole session.

Half whoas are when you still your arms (at the elbows) and stop following the horse to temporarily stop the forward movement. As soon as you feel a slight stall in the motion you release and go back to softly following. It's like breaking down a half halt, which is a rebalancing of the horse through seat, hands, and leg, all applied simultaneously.

In addition to working on the half whoas and half goes we did a stretchy circle to the left and worked a little on the canter in both directions on a 20 meter circle. Overall it was a good ride, though I think Sophie was a bit tired from yesterday, not too tired to trot or canter, she was perfectly willing to do that. But she actually had an easier time of being on the bit yesterday, on the trail ride, than today.
Oh, and I got her two sets of washable dressage boots from Tack of the Day. She has a wound on her neck, I think from Maddie, so I braided her mane again and put some Corona ointment on it. I'm not sure if I'll ride tomorrow or not, but I'll at least check Sophie out and check her wound. Tomorrow's my birthday and I'm going to dinner with my husband! I'm thinking I may just work on stretchy circles because I don't think I'll be able to ride on Thursday, and Friday through Sunday is out too. Stretchy circles seem to be something Sophie can do pretty easily and I think it'll be good for us. We'll also try playing with different rein lengths, because I don't want her to become dependent upon a short rein for balance, or to get used to carrying her head a certain way and not actually being through and on the bit. Plus, we can always practice more canter transitions!

Quick!!! Drop What You're Doing...

And go here https://www.tackoftheday.com/ and order some washable dressage boots. They are AMAZING! You neeeeeed them. Go, now. Order! Sophie has a set in lavender and they fit like a glove, are easy to put on and take off, and when you wash them you can't even tell they've been worn. And they really do just go in the washer like a t-shirt. So go, buy some now! They're only available until noon Wednesday. If you're confused about ordering, I'll tell you Sophie's sizes to try to help you out, she is 15 hands and wears small boots on her front legs and medium boots on her hind legs.

Sophie says: "Your horses will love them as much as I do!"

Monday, August 4, 2008

*Real* Wet Saddle Blankets!

Today was interesting...I woke up late (11:00) and my right eye was burning a little, so I checked my email and then ended up taking a little nap. My eyes haven't been as good since last Thursday when I woke up at 5:30 a.m. Craig left for class around 3 or so and at 3:30 I headed out to the barn. It was sprinkling just a little, and the roads between my house and the barn were soaked...but the barn was dry (even the driveway)...weird. I started transferring stuff from my car to my trailer/the barn and said hello to Kim. A few minutes later Hayley asked me if I wanted to go on a trail ride with them. My mind raced for a few minutes and then I said yes.

So I transferred everything to the trailer and double and triple checked that I had everything I needed to ride, especially after the stirrups fiasco of this weekend. Then I groomed and fly sprayed Sophie and took her out to the trailer. Kim and Hayley and Emily, Kim's niece were going. While I was loading Sophie Emily went to get Midnight so that Sophie wasn't hanging out in the trailer by herself...since she really was not wanting to be in the trailer by herself. On the trailer ride over Sophie fell in love with Midnight.
Once we arrived we got the horses ready. We decided not to tie Sophie to the trailer because she was upset on the trailer, though fine as soon as she got off the trailer. She's an odd horse, whinnying her head off and tossing her head, almost looking like she's going to rear when in her slot on the trailer, but as soon as I open her divider she calms right down and stands and waits for me to unclip her and lead her out. Once the horses were ready we mounted up and off we went.

The first trail we went on was kind of steep just to get onto the trailer, but Sophie went ok, though a little wary. Crossing water and the foot bridges she was good, but Midnight had to go back over the obstacle so that Sophie could put her nose in his tail to go over everything the first time. Kim led, followed by Midnight, then Sophie and I, and then Hayley. Everytime Kim trotted up a hill Midnight would have to break into a canter to stay caught up and Sophie was breaking into a canter every time Midnight did (or every time Midnight trotted). She was not letting Midnight leave her behind! There were a couple of places that they normally gallop up (very steep inclines, lol) that I wanted to trot (though I was thinking Sophie would canter them because she'd been cantering everything they were trotting), so Kim trotted up them and I followed on Sophie, and then everyone else galloped. Excepted Sophie didn't want to canter behind Kim's horse, if it trotted, she cantered, I think because she didn't love it as much as Midnight.
We rode for over an hour and by the end of the ride sweat was dripping off Sophie's stomach, and her saddle pad was soaked completely through. We let the horses graze a bit before loading them up to go home. Sophie freaked out about being by herself at the front of the trailer again, but at least chilled out when I got up there to take her out! I hate slant loads. Hate them, hate them, hate them. There is no feeling of being trapped with my two horse trailer complete with full sized escape doors!

I gave Sophie a good grooming when we got back and cleaned my tack. I also cleaned out Kim's trailer, because I was really grateful that they took me with them. It was a lot of fun and a great experience for Sophie. It gave me a chance to see her in a new place and rider her with horses that I knew were going to be calm. I hope we get to go again this summer, often! Lol. I was very impressed with Sophie, for the most part she was awesome, on the bit even, for a lot of it. I rode with contact for most of the ride, but light contact often and found that I wasn't pulling, and due to that, she was soft and round and listening, it was great. At the beginning of the ride she was doing a bit of piaffe and passage and collected trot, lol. But she worked out of it and was good. She's going to be tired tomorrow though. I let her walk on a long rein whenever I could, and as long as she was stretching her neck down and out she had as much rein as she wanted. But when she brought it up to look around we went back to light contact.

Kim and Hayley seemed impressed with how good Sophie was. I'm glad she was good, next time we can go a little faster at the fast sections and I'd be worried that if she was bad we wouldn't be invited to go along next time. So, here's hoping there's a next time, and soon! Though hopefully Sophie doesn't have as much nervous energy to burn. At the beginning Kim asked if we were working on our piaffe because Sophie was trotting in place due to me asking her to stay off of Midnight's tail but her not wanting to stop! By the end of the ride her saddle pad was soaked completely through and she had sweat dripping off her belly.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Reasons Why My Non-Horsey Husband Rocks in Horsey Ways...

After my ride yesterday I thought it'd be good to dedicate an entry to the title topic.

...Yesterday I realized that even though I was close to having everything I needed to ride, I'd forgotten stirrups/leathers!!!! Aaaaaack. So I was able to use stirrups/leathers from my sister's saddle and it took me 10 minutes of trying to get the right stirrup on (one good reason to never get another Custom Saddlery saddle, I like it, but the stirrups slid on my Albion like butter). But, my husband got it on, yay!

...He'll hold a horse until the cows come home for me, for example, yesterday he held Jessie while I tacked him up, which took about 30 minutes due to getting stuff from the car and going inside to put on my breeches and get some stirrups.

Craig and Jessie having a conversation about the concept of standing still

...After my ride yesterday and seeing how hard it was to ride on the hilly terrain he suggested we take the truck/trailer to my parents one weekend before the weather gets bad so that we can trailer him to a place with an arena to get better pictures.

...He'll come take pictures of me ride whenever I ask him to.

...He considers the horses to be "must pays".

...He puts up with me when I can't ride or don't have a saddle or don't have a horse.

...He'll stop by the barn on his way home from work to fly spray my horse so that she isn't eaten alive when I'm not allowed to go to the barn.

...He stops by Equus Now on his way home from karate whenever I ask.

...He reads my camera manual to be able to take better pictures of me riding.

...He'll watch Walter Zettl videos with me if I ask him to.

...He's seen Sylvester, National Velvet, International Velvet, Moondance Alexander, She-Ra, My Little Ponies, The Black Stallion, The Black Stallion Returns, and he bought me Danny. And rented Riders through Netflix for me.

...He hasn't told me to stop buying from Tack of the Day.

...He looks at all of the horse pictures I take.

...He knows that Zorro is riding a Friesian in the movies, even though he should be riding and Andalusian.

...He's gone to Equine Affaire, All American Quarter Horse Congress, and Breyerfest with me. Not really horse related, but, he also goes to model horse shows with me.

...Within a week of getting back from Iraq (he was gone for 8 months) he took my sister and I to see the Spanish Riding School on their U.S. Tour...even before going home to see his parents...and that was before we were even engaged, let alone married!

That's what comes to mind right away, I know there are more, but I think that's a good start. I'd love to hear how everyone else's significant others help out or at least tolerate horses!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

As Promised...Pictures!!!

Craig and Jessie having a conversation about standing still...

Raring to go!















A couple of steps of shoulder in...(while giving the inside rein)...

A couple of steps of leg yield...

And then some silly faces...



Jessie...

Jessie is my 19 year old Appendix QH gelding. I got him when I was 13, and have owned him for exactly 14 years now. Or thereabouts, we bought him right around my birthday in 1994, which is August 6th. He was 5, and I was just turning 13. We did everything together, English, Western, Jumping, and Dressage. We showed a lot and won a lot, on the local level. He hung out while I went to college and got started with the Air Force. Then he lived with me in New Jersey and hung out when I went to Korea. After that, he moved with me to Dayton.

We took lots of lessons with Kim in the fall last year. He reintroduced a couple of friends to riding. And then he got hurt. We never were able to tell for sure, but the vet says it was the cruciate ligaments. Of course, when he came up lame he was sound when we blocked just above the hock, so who knows. We blocked his leg, then injected his hock. The first vet visit he didn't flex worse on any joint than the others, we couldn't tell without blocking. The next visit he flexed really bad on his stifle, so we injected the stifle. We also ultrasounded the leg and took x-rays of every possible bone in the leg. Didn't find anything pointing to what might be the problem. So he was on stall rest for a month and getting stiffer and stiffer. I decided to move him to my parents farm where he could be on pasture rest, in their big, hilly fields.

When he first arrived he wasn't allowed out with Lou, my sister's horse. Instead he had to stay in a smaller pasture, where he couldn't build up to a full gallop. As the months passed he was allowed out with Lou and he slowly got better. I was worried that he would always have a slight hitch to his gait, and never seem "sound", though he was definitely pasture sound. Even mid-July he was still a little gimpy, though didn't seem to be in any pain at all. Just limped a little when trotting a small circle.

So, that's the background on Jessie, for those of you that don't "know" him. You can see pictures of him on my website, http://www.jesterjigger.com/ (Jessie's registered name is Jester Jigger, which is why it's my name for everything on the internet). Jessie is my soul horse, and I hope that some day Sophie and I will have the same bond. He was my confidant through the years, and my reason for making many of the life choices I made, I was always working toward pursuing dressage with him, but that meant putting riding on hold for a few years to get educated and get my career started. I was absolutely crushed when he turned up injured. All of that waiting, and it just slipped through my fingers. But, I've come to terms with it, and I also recognize that he is just as happy hanging out in a pasture as he was with me.

I'm not sure where we'll go from here, but he'll probably stay with my parents. Craig and I can afford to board two horses here, in Ohio, but if we move to an expensive place next we may not be able to board two horses. I wish I could have him with me and see him getting exercised, but that's ok, I'm just happy knowing he's sound again.

Quick Update...

Jessie is better! Not even the slightest hitch to his gait. I rode him today and he was wonderful, walk, trot, canter, shoulder in, leg yield, he even threw in a flying change. He was awesome and I'm so happy I could cry. I do have pictures, but won't be able to post them right away. I'm so relieved that he's better, I just wish it hadn't taken six months!

Friday, August 1, 2008

Taking It Easy...

Today was an easy day for Sophie. I think she's feeling better and appreciated the easy ride yesterday because she wasn't leaning into the curry comb today. But I still curried and brushed and curried and brushed. I fly sprayed her and brushed out her tail too. Then I braided her mane into chunky braids to keep her mane off her neck because she was a little damp from the humidity. It's supposed to be pretty hot this weekend and I think she'll appreciate it. I only braided the top four inches, so the ends of her mane are free to "swish" at flies too. Her mane is getting pretty long. After done brushing I fly sprayed her really good and then sprayed her tail with Avocado Mist. I'm not sure it really does anything, but I already have it, so I'm going to use it up rather than just throw it away.

I also picked up all of my gear to ride Jessie this weekend. Sophie will get to enjoy her next two days off and we'll see what Jessie remembers, I'm excited, I haven't ridden him in close to six months. Fortunately he's the kind of horse that can have a year off and you wouldn't know it other than he might be a little out of shape. I've come to terms with "losing" Jessie, years before I'd planned on it. The one regret I have is that my parents never got to see us after months of lessons...and I only have one batch of pictures.

My eyes were horrible yesterday, I woke up at 5:30 to study because of course, I miss a week of school and have two exams on the same day the following week. So I was awake from 5:30-12:00 yesterday and my eyes got *tired*. I was having to put drops in them constantly. They're much better today, but still tired.